Our next coming out story is from Ajay Millan Mainar and he is based in Butuan, Philippines.

Since i was a little kid, I’ve already had this “boyish” act. But of course, I was just a kid at that time, I still wear girly clothes with all those hairpins and butterfly hairclips. I even join a pageant when I was on my pre-school years. High school wasn’t that good I got bullied by my classmates and schoolmates.

By the year 2016, I already had this gender dysphoria. It feels like I am not just a lesbian, I’m a man! So, that was the time I decided to identify myself as a transgender man. Yes! Even though I’m still a Pre-T (for two years already) I am considering myself as a man!

“I feels like I am not just a lesbian, I’m a man!”

Then, all of a sudden, there was this beautiful lady teacher. She’s our math teacher and to be honest, yes i had a bigtime crush on her! And I started asking myself again ” Tomboy ba ako?” (Am I a lesbian?) But still, same as before I didn’t mind it at all, again! I admit, I’ve had serious and not-so serious relationship with some boys outside our school.

In my college years there is this one girl who caught my attention. We’ve become close friends, she was also my classmate in our physical education class. Then one night, I’ve just realized this is not just an ordinary crush. So, after that realization I just found it out myself that I’m a lesbian. But our relationship lasted for only like 7 months. This was in the year 2014.

 By the year 2016, I already had this gender dysphoria. It feels like I am not just a lesbian, I’m a man! So, that was the time I decided to identify myself as a transgender man. Yes! Even though I’m still a Pre-T (for two years already) I am considering myself as a man!

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